At The Cross - Chris Tomlin (Passion 2014) Worship Song with Lyrics

PhoenixONE :: February 4th

Paralyzed

What happens to the heart of a person who suddenly realizes that the person they're with is no longer alive in their heart. Should they stay? Should they leave? Should they just honor their vows? What if the reason they choose to stay is because of financial security? Does this make them an awful person? I think, in answer to a top question, "the heart begins to die of loneliness". What if the person stays because, deciding to leave means giving up the standard of living. Therefore  paralyzing  the idea of leaving and they   reconciles with loneliness. Comments are welcomed.. May I add that the lonely heart has relentlessly  tried by means of  verbalization, to bring life into the relationship. However, the outcome remains unchanged. I'm looking to start a dialogue with wise, intelligent and  honest people.This is a topic that might be a burden on someone's heart,who might  be out there in  the universe and any input, from positive and encouraging people, may  possibly shed some light and help the insufferable relationship.

Linda Bratspir: Broken Vows

Linda Bratspir: Broken Vows: How does this happen? More importantly. Why does it happen. You find someone and you spend every moment with them and soon realize that you ...

Broken Vows

How does this happen? More importantly. Why does it happen. You find someone and you spend every moment with them and soon realize that you need more of them. You want to make a stronger commitment to prove your devotion. You transcend every obstacle to keep your love intact and close. You consent to exchange vows of faithfulness. But after life runs its course and responsibilities and other commitments take control, you soon find yourself slowly pulling apart. Things that used to bring you together no longer have the affect it once did. The attraction has slowly dimmed. The wife aches to be loved and cherished like," Once Upon A Time". She recalls how he chased her heart and now he runs away. The pain and the feeling of abandonment is so strong. The wife shares her feelings, he apologizes yet, his heart  is still distant. She is not the queen she once was to him. There is a void and a spiritual disconnect. The wife feels so unloved. She soon discovers totally by chance he has shared his heart with someone else Signs were all there, but it's only now she is reading them. He has shared his lips with someone else and to make the wound deeper it is with a friend. The betrayal is overwhelming. What happen to the love? What happened to the commitment? The vows have been broken.

Venting

I feel so darn sad at this very moment.... Tears are simply clouding my eyes. Nothing brings me more joy then to be included in my children's lives. Only God knows how significant these little gestures mean to me. If the children are getting together is it too much to ask to be included? Instead, I'm an after thought. I just want to go away for a long time and maybe be missed a little. Whenever there's been a need for me, I come through. Children have   a short term memory. They can be thoughtless, hurtful and unkind.

What should I do with my sad little heart today? I feel so sad I want to go to bed. God give me the strength to go to church at 5. I need to feel alive. I feel so darn sad. I have two sons. I don't hear from  too often. I wonder what I have done wrong... Is this normal? Am I too sensitive? My personal life needs adjustments. My husband and I have communication issues. I say what I feel and do what I say... He is a contradiction to what he thinks, feels and does.When I inquire about certain things, he doesn't give an honest response. He says one thing, means another, does another and means the other. I can't keep up!!! What's the truth?!!!!! Is he hiding an ugly truth that contradicts his projected charecter. It's too difficult to try and convince people you are this way and then act a different way. Too much work. Eventually all that contradiction comes to a head.

I must say, that all that I wrote here has since improved by the grace of God, I've been able to reach my balance and find my happy place with all the people I've mentioned. Thank God for his loving mercy and grace. This blog was written in two separate dates. Today I enjoy a better communication with my husband and improved my communications with my children. My life is back on track with those that I love most in my life.

Healing From Our Childhood

Childhood is a time when children learn to respect positional authority.They learn about honor, integrity and faith in the living God. Its a time of positive experiences and joys. Parents encouraging the natural curiosity and wonder in all things with their children. Its a time when parents choose to nurture and love their children enough to teach right from wrong in a way that is age appropriate. Discipline is a form of teaching not  punishing. Childhood is a time when boundaries equals security for the developing child. A family that shares meals, stories and bedtime prayers, will always have a significant closeness. This is my ideal childhood. No child is born to hate, criticize, and to be prejudice. This is learned behavior. How sad to know that so many of us as parents, have missed the mark with our children. Most of us feel  deeply that we've failed our children in some important way. In a way, we have. Due to our own dysfunctional upringing, many of us,  had our own childhood blemished. An important question to ask. How do I help myself to heal and furthermore, How do I make sure that I've healed my child.from any of my transgressions. It's been  my experience that you must have some degree of faith. Praying with your childe is so important and the wholesome desire in your heart to change and follow with a heartfelt apology. Recognizing your mistakes and transgression is huge. Sharing with your child your own childhood and how inspite of your upbringing, you  recognize that your parents gave you all they had even though, what they gave, fell short,or wasn't enough. Recognizing that most parents truly intend to love and grow their children to the best of their learned and taught skills However, teaching to forgive and grow as a family,is crucial. Forgiveness is key in all relationships.   By the grace and love of God, we must choose how we want to be remembered. Insuring that each sequential chapter in our life  is growing and stretching us  to be  a wiser person. Children will always watch how we respond and react to things and this is a quality that stays with the a child into adulthood. How we speak and conduct ourselves is duplicated in our children. Kindness is  the purest form of love. Forgiveness is key.