Mother's Day

My most dreaded holiday of all is soon approaching... Where can I go? Where can I hide? If I could rid a holiday forever, It would be this one!! For me its a holiday that  reminds me of the failure I've been as a mother.

My children, for the most part will pin point all the wrong I've done as a parent. Maybe one or two, may come up with some positive things. But for the most part, all I've heard has been negative things. I didn't always feel this way. When they were all little, they all made me feel special, loved and cherished. We didn't have much money, yet they all got together and handmade me a Mother's Day card. How loved and special I felt then. All that is gone today. Who invented such a dreadful holiday? I don't need a day to remind me. My kids do a great job of it. All I can say is, I gave all I had to parenting.I'll continue to try and  achieve some balance, as life has an amazing way to through you off coarse. In my humble opinion, did I make mistakes? "Yes". Did I have some positive moment? "Yes". Had I had better tools myself, I might have done a better job. However. I'm still alive and for the most part healthy. Trying to be better then I was. But I guess as the cliche goes, "Too little too late" How sad for me..... So, if its all the same to my children, I'd rather go away and ignore this awful holiday. I must also say that my mother has past away. So this holiday should also pass away. God Bless all the great Moms! My hearts is with my mom.. I wish more then anything to be able to call her and share my day with her. Looking back, she made mistakes. She even made me feel like I was born the wrong sex. Didn't feel loved by her and yet, as I grew older I knew she did in her way. She gave me all she had. Its all one can ask for. I miss my mom...... I miss her so much I cry..... I do have her remains. I think I will hug her......Heavenly Father bring my heart peace. This holiday is unbearable.. A happy mother's day will be, when I can truly feel the love of all children. Gifts don't constitute as a replacement for daily acts of love and kindness.

Without Love

The wonders of a parent's love for his/her child. It transcends obstacles to help.A parent's love forgives, tolerates, encourages and supports decisions even when the parent doesn't fully agree. The parent soon realizes that resistance is futile.The parent will consed at times for harmony's sake. The child is willful, strong and opinionated. The parent also comes to realize that the child bears little to no respect, or reverence to parental authority. This can almost be tolerated. However. What happens to the heart of the parent when she looks into the eyes of her child and only finds contempt. The parent cries quietly.

Healing

Prayers are known to be a powerful resource that by grace is ours to use. "Heavenly Father, I pray for healing of negative influences. Speak to me through your Holy Spirit. Use your divine intervention to strengthen my faith and bring me closer to you. Help me to use what you've taught me, so that I may bring glory to your kingdom. It's impossible to live in this life without your influence, love, mercy and protection. I raise your Holy name today in the hope to  feel your merciful spirit heal my soul." Amen.....  I know that all things work together for my good. I thank you God for your awesome sacrifice.

A Void

How does a christian marriage survive a no sex relationship? Does the man consent to live with a women that cannot or will not have a physical relationship with him? Does a women ignore her need for a physical relationship? How can this issue be resolved and still maintain and honor God's principals in marriage?

Is the refusal of intimacy grounds for divorce? Is the inability to afford the medication to support physical relations also grounds for divorce? Even if medication is affordable,  and still no physical relationship is being celebrated between the two, is this grounds for divorce? The fact that age might be a factor yet no other reasons present, is this reason for divorce? Respect in the marriage is slowing diminishing and the wiliness to save the dying marriage is this grounds for divorce? I believe that at least two reasons are grounds for counseling. One, the affordable medication in order to have physical relations and two, the lack of respect will require the need of counciling  in order to regain a healthier relationship. This is an open forum for further discussion.